Sister

this is my sister

when i look at her

i’ve always seen a mirror

not a real one of course

but when i actually do look upon my own reflection

it’s like i’m taken back

i for some reason

see myself for what i am

not what she is

for a long time

i thought caroline to be everything i am not

everything good and wise and patient

but she isn’t

and i’m not as bad as i think

at least i hope not

sometimes i feel pretty lowly though

messing up

losing it

i don’t really know how to fix that

i’m striving for perfection

that’s my problem

we can’t be perfect

i’m sorry i can’t be perfect caroline